although i cant write much about imran for the past 2 years on my blog, he was always a major part of my life. and still is. maybe always will be somehow. because i forgot to add that in the story, somewhere back in 08, there was a hand... his hand that pulled me out.

i never knew how harsh and cruel society would be to us. and against your race. i never wanted to be like them. people never knew how great you were, people never heard much about you, because of all the bad stuff that had been happening. and you, were there to clear it up with me, for me... and nobody else knows but me... and it saddens me to see the way people treat u, in turn affecting us.

but the truth is, people ought to know... but i am not able to justify or put into words how much you have done for me... how much we both have sacrificed. how much the stereotyping hurts. how much you were silent pushing me up from the deepest depths of the ocean... and how people were kicking you down when you tried to resurface for air, how they used you as their rock... how you allowed yourself to be my rock...

my family never knew how much we struggled to make them happy... by not being together...
my family never knew how much you helped me... all the tears we both shed... all the goodbyes we said.
all the times i couldnt do it alone and ran back into your arms and you always took me back...
and i took the fall for our relationship...

and the only times i ever went down on my knees were to beg my parents to stop fighting...
to beg my brother to let go of your case and not bring it up to harm you...
to show you how sorry i am for leaving you and how much i love you...

became your girlfriend again and my family disowned me for that...
and now im sitting alone in my room, eating dinners alone in my room, given the silent treatment...
and i told you i wouldnt be happy like this in the long run...
and you let me go...

as always, watch me walk away from your life...

it was, it is never easy...

it has to be the hardest thing and choice i have to make...

and in between the guys i crushed on, dreaming up of a better future... you allowed me to take their hand if they offered.
for me to be happy.
but i never could be myself...
it was an inner struggle.
and chapters could never close, answers could never be found...

but dont ever for once apologize for any of that.. dont ever for once said that you caused a mess in my life...

there are no words at all to replicate what we have went through together...
there are no words at all to replicate the bond and love we share...
and for now, these are all i can come up with...

i owe a big part of my life to you...
and i know ure the last person on earth that would hurt me...
and up till now, have never done anything to do so.

im sorry for the way things are. im sorry as hell for the way my family are...
im sorry society affects me so badly.

i just hope we will both end up happy... and that we remain close in life...
because i would never want to lose a person like you.
so dont ever go far...